As a writer, I can vouch for it. As much mandatory as it is to publish my opinions everyday, I admit it’s equally scary.
The audience assumes the super expressive ones of us to be bold, confident and have our heads high up in the air for we are choosing to rule the minds of the people.
As much as we love to express, most of us started expressing in the first place because we were too shy and too timid to speak our words out loud. But nevertheless, we were too much of a rebel to stay shut.
When I start typing a piece, I stare onto the blank screen with anxious fingers racing through keyboard buttons finding the right word, tone and feeling to begin with. It doesn’t matter if I’ve written hundreds of these before. Every time I sit down to write, I am scared and chided.
Me. I feel I am the worst choice to be sitting here in front of a blank screen or paper. At this moment, I feel a lack of expression as I fumble for the right vocabulary. ”You suck at grammar’,’ I think to myself. I feel undeserving to hold the power to form an opinion – ”Who am I even to comment on it?” I tell myself ten times how nobody cares what I think or believe.
As an artist, let me tell you a secret. For us, criticism never hurts as much as being ignored does. This is exactly what we are scared of.
We give out a piece of our own ideology, our own selves.
And that’s exactly what I tell myself. Nobody cares. And it’s just you and your art.
Do yourself a favor and shoot it out in the world.Worrying about the consequences is equivalent to throwing excuses – just because you are too lazy or too much of a coward to show people who you are.
The thing is, there are too many opinions circulating around on social media, directly or indirectly telling us who we should be; good, bad, sarcastic, abusive, bullying, fair-unfair, it’s an assortment of opinions.
It’s your job to put it out there and let it go. Trust your art or your words to reach the right people because in the end we can only hope for synchronicity to reach our words to the right people at the right time.
You know how you stumble on a quote, a story or even a painting just at the moment when you need it the most? I’m sure the makers of it were equally scared to put it out there. But they anyway did. And aren’t you thankful to them?
So, let someone have the chance to be thankful to you. Because to make this world a better place, we got to do it one by one.
”And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.” – Sylvia Path, The Unabridged Journals Of Sylvia Path