Karan Johar Opens About His Sex Life And Perhaps This Is What We Were Waiting To Hear From Him

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Updated on 5 Sep, 2017 at 2:55 pm

Karan Johar has always been a private person and has silently suffered every kind of joke made on his sexuality and body language. In today’s world, silence is considered the trait of a loser. If you want to silence a lie, you have to speak up. In his open letter to NDTV, he talks about his childhood traumas, inactive sex life and the struggle to accept himself.


 On this childhood.

“I had no siblings, no older brother to enlighten me. I grew up in a snooty neighbourhood and since I was also a shy kid, I never went out and met or made the kind of friends that could have at least told me this was something I needed to know about. So the fact of sex just went over my head.”


On his first blow-job experience:

“So much so that when a bunch of classmates solemnly swore to a 12-year-old me that a blow job is when you take off all your clothes and lie on the bed with the fan on full, I followed it religiously, And very proudly told them after the summer vacation got over that I had had a “blow job” every day.”



On losing his virginty. Yeah, it’s true:

“Then I went through a phase where I just wasn’t feeling attractive enough. I wasn’t secure enough, I wasn’t sure enough. By the time I lost my virginity, I was 26 and that was after Kuch Kuch Hota Hai when I felt mildly famous. And so fame took the place of some of the shame. But again, since I didn’t grow up in a sexually informed, involved or enlightened atmosphere, by the time 26 rolled around, there were all kinds of silly notions that had crept in my head like having the lights off.”


On disliking porn and completing his bucket list:

“In fact, I remember politely asking the person I was engaging with if we could “start the process”! I didn’t like watching porn because I didn’t find it sexy. I couldn’t understand how others got excited watching other people having fun. Porn made me feel worse. It only reminded of my own, well, shortcomings.”

“I was – ashamed of my body, ashamed of who I was, largely sexually ignorant and convinced I wasn’t attractive to anyone. Which is probably why the first time I had sex, all I could say was “thank you”! I felt gratitude not sexiness – thank you for ticking one very belatedly off the bucket list.”

Sex is not sex in movies:

“I also wonder if we are programmed by movies and rom-coms and ads and the general popular narrative to feel sexy in ways that aren’t achievable. We seem to forget that sex when it happens is often clumsy and sweaty and sloppy and not always that sexy. Have we made it into an unattainable phenomenon? More about conquest and technique and a lot less about romance and affection?”


On not chasing sex:

“I’m making a declaration – I’m not chasing sex (anymore). If someone wants to chase me, they can certainly go for it. I can’t do it – all that stress related to sexting, and should I put off all the lights or make it dim, followed by “am I good in bed”? I was once invited to an orgy. I declined. I can’t imagine anything more awful. I really am clumsy! I wouldn’t know what to do, where to look. I can barely handle one person, where could I hope to manage two or more?!”

On believing in love and everything around it:

“That said, am I the person who yearns to get it? Who wants to embrace it, enjoy it and get what the fuss is all about? Of course part of me does, but I think it will only follow love. I still believe in the intimacy, the quiet moments, the beauty of a kiss – but the sharing will always be more exciting to me than the act itself. No chains or handcuffs or toys for me thank you very much, I don’t get the fuss – maybe I’m alone but I don’t get it.”


On being just himself:

“I’m also saying (to myself as much as to anyone else) that it’s ok to feel unsexy. It’s ok to feel nervous, it’s ok to not have moments that feel written out of a movie script. I feel Victoria may have a Secret but you don’t have to know it! And those Calvin Klein models – don’t be fooled by the socks that they got.

And finally, to all the people who keep telling me to put myself out there – I just want to know where “there” is. Where is this mythical “there”? I have looked for that “there” everywhere but I have not found it!”

Guys, it’s tough to open about your personal life and keep it out ‘there’. Honestly, I have never been his fan but today, he gained one.



Read his full letter here.