Kangana is one hell of a woman. She is stubborn, incredibility talented, outspoken and has a raging badass avatar. Her hideous yet extraordinary journey in Bollywood is a powerful inspiration for every woman. From being labeled as a B-grade actor, mocked for her peculiar accent and more so, considered “untouchable” from her peers, she has taken a lonely, painstaking struggle to reach the top.
Her personal relationships have been ridiculed on public platforms especially her ugly legal battle with Hrithik. But through all this, Kangana stands today as one of the most successful Bollywood actresses and is a supreme example of a woman who stood for herself when the world disgraced her.
Though there have been numerous times when Kangana has spoken about her tumulting relationships but this time, she did something interesting. Recently, she attended ‘Reebok Fit to Fight’ awards in Delhi and narrated her ‘Fit to Fight’ journey in the form of short story.
This is what she said:
“There was this young girl in the mountains. Extremely brave, naive, impractical and stubborn. This girl, when she was walking she saw a picture of a man and she fell is love with him. And that picture led her to cross oceans, deserts, mountains and landscapes. She is standing under stars with the man and this man kisses her and he says I love you. The worlds meet and it becomes a trap between the real world and the world which was supposed to be future and to be reached, but one manages to reach there. What happens is that this man says that she is not a normal girl, she has a lot of fire in her belly. And she isn’t even a woman, she is a lion in a woman. So, the man gets scared of this woman and that’s when the whole love story becomes a tragedy.”
It is very evident that she is referring herself as a third person here because she is the one L-I-O-N-E-S-S who cannot be caged. But who is the man in her story? Hrithik, may be. Well, we can only guess that one.
Continuing her story, she accepted that she is the “girl with a lot of fire” and also boldly talked about her disclosed emails(letters) she shared with Hrithik.
“But the thing is I cannot help if I have fire in my belly. To make myself worthy of an individual or my lover, I have crossed mental landscapes, human landscapes and all sort of distances covered. But what happens when these worlds meet and you are faced of extreme brutality? I am saying this because people have seen how I have put up a strong front to fight but nobody has seen what I feel as a woman, when I am subjected to that kind of brutality.”
“The letters that I might have written, which were brutally exposed to the world. How did I feel as a human being because every letter that you’ve written to your lover holds a lot of vulnerability? You are exposing part of your soul or yourself, not to the world but to an individual. I felt extremely naked in front of the world. I cried for nights in my room. People make fun of me. But I never answered to that brutality in the same spirit. I think that makes me see myself as a winner.
She accepts that she is not an ideal girl for anyone and ends her story in a poetic mode:
“I can’t help if I am not good enough for an individual but I think what’s not justice is to make fun of a woman’s vulnerabilities and sort of embarrass her for her desires. As far as letters are concerned, I’ve gone ahead to tell my side of the story but the only thing I want to say is, “Jinko duniya ki nigaaho se chupa kar rakha, jinko ek umar kaleje se laga ke rakha. Teri khushboo mein base khat main jalata kaise, pyar main doobe hue khat main jalaata kaise.”
I must say, Kangana is and always be celebrated for uniqueness. Also, whatever really happened between Hrithik and Kangana is still under the covers. But, we wish Hrithik could come and speak for himself. Right, guys?