Sanjay Dutt: The man who survived every wound that life gave him and came out stronger.
From losing his mother, a failed marriage, severe drug addiction and serious court cases, this is not the life he wished for. In April 1993, he was accused of accepting weapons from Abu Salem and was arrested under the provisions of the Terrorist and Disruptive Activities for the Bombay Blasts case.
In March 2013, the Supreme Court upheld the five-year sentence, 18 months of which he already spent in jail during the first trial. This time, he was left with no choice but to complete the remaining sentence as he couldn’t the carry the agony of prolonged court cases anymore.
After serving his sentence, Dutt was released from Yerwada Central Jail on February 25, 2016.
was in Delhi to speak at EEMA’s (Event and Entertainment Management Association) annual convention, and vented about all the feelings and struggles of his life in jail like a true khalnayak
: “When I was in prison, it was very difficult time for dad, Priya and me. She came to meet me on Rakhi and I gave her the coupons that I collected in jail. In the Pune jail, there are flies all over, billions of flies, in your hair, in your clothes and even in your food.
Main makkhi nikaal kar daal pi jaata tha, mera co-accused daal nahin peeta tha. Maine usko bola, ‘Yaar, tu kab tak bhookha rahega?’ Usne poocha, ‘Tu makkhi wali daal kaise pi jata hai?’ Toh maine bola, ‘Yahan protein nahin milta hai, daal mein protein hota hai’.
I learnt this – apna kaam karo,
hope mat karo
. I want to go across the country and speak to people about my life and share my journey. For me, life has not been beautiful.
Maine jail mein Ramayan, Bhagwad Gita, Shiv Puran, Ganesh Puran, Bible, Quran Sharif aur Guru Granth Sahib padhi. I can sit and talk to any maulana or any priest and make sense. I had a small temple, samne bathroom tha tab bhi mandir tha. God is in your heart.
When I was in jail, it was very difficult for me to not see my children for three years. There were moments when I really wanted to see them. My wife used to say, ‘Main unko leke aati hoon’. But I told her, ‘Never, unko yahan kabhi mat lana, I don’t want them here’.
I didn’t want them to see me in torn clothes and the topi
. I didn’t want them to live with that image.
Friendship for me is to have no expectation from your friend. Mujhe kuch zarurat nahin hai, kuch expectation nahin hai. When I was in jail, I didn’t expect anyone to visit my home or see me in jail. It didn’t hurt when they didn’t. But now, when people are coming to visit me, I love it.
Substance abuse is something that you do if you want to do it. Once you get into it, it’s very difficult to leave. It is the worst thing in the world.
My journey with substance abuse has been about 12 years. There are no drugs in the world that I have not done.
When my father took me to America (for rehab), they gave me a list (of drugs) and I ticked every drug on it, because I had taken all of them. The doctor told my dad, “What kind of food do you eat in India? Going by the drugs he did, he should be dead by now!”
“I didn’t leave drugs because of my family. I left because I wanted to be out of it. I didn’t want that life. That’s when you have to use willpower.” We cannot imagine the suffering he has gone through and only wish he lives his life happily. For us, readers, nothing more is left to hear and we cannot wait to watch him on the silver screen because the lion is out the cage.
Source: The Times Of India.